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Day 72

Ships Log Day 72.

LOL! I have always wanted to have one of those. But I’m not on a ship.

I am going to go backwards a little.

I started reading the Bible.

No. I am not some kind of religious freak. But I guess if you are going to really start questioning what you believe in during a pandemic seems like a fantastic opportunity.

This all started over Easter. I have a Covid Buddy. You know a friend that you have been seeing the whole time, it’s like you live with them, but you don’t, but you know you are safe around them because you are also the only person that they have seen. Anyway….

My friend came over on Easter to have a couple of drinks and we started talking about religion. Turns out she is significantly more religious than I am. We had some very interesting and deep conversations that I may share in a later post. End result was she sent me a YouTube video of a sermon. Took me 3 days to actually watch it. It was an hour long and the guy was reminding me of the crazy internet church people. It was all about “Crazy Faith” Which I still don’t have.

The main thing I got from that sermon was this;

Hope turns into Faith which turns into Believe.

I can wrap my head around that. Now, I was still on the fence with is this whole God being real, or are we all being duped by our own stupidity and insecurities?

So my youngest has a strong belief in God (Don’t know how that happened). I asked him why he believes in God. His answer;

“Mom, I want there to be a heaven. I hope that when I die I can  be with you in heaven.”

This kinda blew my mind. It went right with the sermon. He Hoped it, which gave him Faith in it, which made him believe. WHAT?!?!?!?!

So I decided that if I am going to be the crazy cynical person that I am about all of this. I might as well start doing my homework. How can I judge a book I’ve never read. Coming from an avid reader that seems insane. So I started reading The New American Bible Revised Edition by; (Presumably) God.

I started reading it like it was a fantasy book. Let me tell you….

It reads like a fantasy book. Not to say that it is so obvious that everything is fake, but like a really good fantasy book. Where you are like, Holy Shit! This could actually happen. Yes people really are that fucked up. *Getting their father drunk and then sleeping with him so that you have a pure blood line of kids* Jeeze!

So yeah, I’m loving it! I suggest it to all of my fans of reading! Even if you don’t believe. I figure what the hell, I believe in Dragons & Garden Gnomes, how far off is God from that?

Happy Reading people. Maybe one day I will also share my crazy theory on religion.



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I give up!

I am Roman Catholic. I say that very loosely. There are a lot of questions in my mind about spiritual things. There are also a lot of things that I don’t believe that my religion does believe and there are a lot of things that I do believe that my religion doesn’t believe. I finished all of the school and I was baptized and confirmed and married. So as far as the church is concerned I am Roman Catholic.

Not going to talk about the pope now.

In my religion we give something up for Lent. If you don’t already know Lent is when we prepare for the coming of our lord. I don’t capitalize because this is among the long list of things that I don’t believe. I don’t believe that god was a human and died so that we can go to heaven. *Gasp* I know blasphemy. What ever shall we do? This is probably why I’m going to hell. If I believed in hell.

Anyway, we are supposed to give something up in order to get ready for this. It is supposed to be something that we really love. And since I feel that it is good for one’s soul to live through a little deprivation every now and then I abide by this one ritual. Or at least I try. But for me this tends to go the way of New Year’s Resolutions. I lasted just about as long with this as I did with the “I’m going to go to the gym”, or “I’m going to stop cursing in front of the kids”.

I decided that the thing that I love the most, the thing that would be the biggest sacrifice for me would be to give up coffee. I know, what was I thinking? Many people asked me that question. Two people actually got upset because I wouldn’t be able to go out for coffee with them any more.

Unfortunately, I failed to take into account the fact that my body actually needs coffee. It needs it like it needs air. Not just because I love the taste and it gives me energy. I actually need it. Not the caffeine, I can replace that with chocolate. And I do love replacing that with chocolate.  But there is something else in it, something that my body just can’t do with out. I believe they call this an addiction. But is an addiction to coffee really a bad thing? I don’t think so.

After 2 weeks of migraines I have made the judgment call to give up. It does feel a little like failing. However, I have decided that the sacrifice is just too great. I do not possess the strength to carry on in this fashion. Siddhartha would be greatly disappointed. And I do hate to disappoint him. But I am so cranky when I have a headache and I get nothing accomplished.

So my glorious cup of black magic is back. And MMMMMM I am a happy camper!


Posted by on February 28, 2013 in oops! that was not PC. ;)


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