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Day 72

Ships Log Day 72.

LOL! I have always wanted to have one of those. But I’m not on a ship.

I am going to go backwards a little.

I started reading the Bible.

No. I am not some kind of religious freak. But I guess if you are going to really start questioning what you believe in during a pandemic seems like a fantastic opportunity.

This all started over Easter. I have a Covid Buddy. You know a friend that you have been seeing the whole time, it’s like you live with them, but you don’t, but you know you are safe around them because you are also the only person that they have seen. Anyway….

My friend came over on Easter to have a couple of drinks and we started talking about religion. Turns out she is significantly more religious than I am. We had some very interesting and deep conversations that I may share in a later post. End result was she sent me a YouTube video of a sermon. Took me 3 days to actually watch it. It was an hour long and the guy was reminding me of the crazy internet church people. It was all about “Crazy Faith” Which I still don’t have.

The main thing I got from that sermon was this;

Hope turns into Faith which turns into Believe.

I can wrap my head around that. Now, I was still on the fence with is this whole God being real, or are we all being duped by our own stupidity and insecurities?

So my youngest has a strong belief in God (Don’t know how that happened). I asked him why he believes in God. His answer;

“Mom, I want there to be a heaven. I hope that when I die I can  be with you in heaven.”

This kinda blew my mind. It went right with the sermon. He Hoped it, which gave him Faith in it, which made him believe. WHAT?!?!?!?!

So I decided that if I am going to be the crazy cynical person that I am about all of this. I might as well start doing my homework. How can I judge a book I’ve never read. Coming from an avid reader that seems insane. So I started reading The New American Bible Revised Edition by; (Presumably) God.

I started reading it like it was a fantasy book. Let me tell you….

It reads like a fantasy book. Not to say that it is so obvious that everything is fake, but like a really good fantasy book. Where you are like, Holy Shit! This could actually happen. Yes people really are that fucked up. *Getting their father drunk and then sleeping with him so that you have a pure blood line of kids* Jeeze!

So yeah, I’m loving it! I suggest it to all of my fans of reading! Even if you don’t believe. I figure what the hell, I believe in Dragons & Garden Gnomes, how far off is God from that?

Happy Reading people. Maybe one day I will also share my crazy theory on religion.

 

 

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Oh is it ever a new year!

So first, unofficial photo shoot under my belt. Weird. I am now a published writer. Ha! (Having nothing to do with the photo shoot, that was all about my husband. This is the life of the wife of a politician.) Ok, so all I did was write an article for our local town paper. But it’s out! It’s in people’s homes! Why, when I know that this blog has the ability to reach the entire world, am I so excited about an article that only reaches the members of my town? I don’t know. It’s something about seeing it in print. Something about seeing a title in a paper followed by my name. I love it!

There have been many other blogs, articles, that have talked about how people with MS’s life is split into two. There is the life that we started with, and then there is life after diagnosis. I have been thinking about this a lot recently. Yes, I am a little too familiar with some doctors now. But in truth, because of my right eye, I have always had issues. So all I’ve really done is add a new specialty. There are now new tests and I no longer have any issues with needles. I miss having issues with needles. I miss needles not being a common place thing in my life.

However, if you knew me before you may not even notice a change. My husband and kids notice a change, but random people that I see, let’s call them friends, probably wouldn’t notice. I myself have finally come to a point where I don’t see it as a before and after scenario. For the first year, ok 2 years, after diagnosis I was convinced that life would never be the same for me again. It didn’t help that I was on Copaxone, that wasn’t working and I had upwards of 9 new lesions at every MRI. But Tysabri has brought me back to life. No new lesions in 3 years. I’ll take it! Sure I still have issues from the previous ones. Those are things that are as of now unfixable. But I’m positive, I have put myself back out there in the world, my family is doing great, it’s a good new year! Now all I need to do is win the lottery so that I can go back to school. 🙂

 
 

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