I can not believe that it has been a month. What happened to the time?
Well, shocker I’m back in the chair.
I think that I scared the crap out of Tyler this morning.
We were driving in the car and the kids are out of control. The usual stealing toys from each other (which I confiscate) and just generally being loud. I shut them up quick with the “Do I have to pull this car over?” In my scary mom voice. Even Rich is scared of my scary mom voice. Then I not so graciously pointed out where we were headed.
*there have been a couple of times, after ridiculous complaining about having to go to Grandma’s, when I have said “would you rather go to the hospital and have a needle stuck in you and dangerous meds pumped into your blood? Cause I’ll trade places.” This is alway met with a resounding “NO!” And eye rolling.*
Well the lack of graciousness is now being spurred on by the kids. So very bluntly I remind them how dangerous what I am about to do is and how tired I am. And could they please cut out their crap!
Silence from the back seat.
Tyler “could you die?” In a very small voice, “every time you do this? Could you die?”
Still angry and not being a good parent at all I say “yes.”
Ok it’s not true, I won’t die. Or at least it is ridiculously unlikely. I feel really bad about saying that. I think Tyler might actually be crying.
It’s official, worst parent.
So I back track. I tell him that I’ll be fine. That there are measures taken to make sure that I am ok. Tests done to make sure that what I am doing is safe.
The kids go back to being happy and singing along to the music. I think that all is forgotten. I hope.
We get to my In-laws and the kids run into the great room ready to spend their time playing video games. I thank my sister-in-law for watching the kids and go back to the car.
Next thing I know the kids are running out to the car to give me a hug and a kiss and Tyler even says “good luck”.
So not forgotten.
Man, those kids almost made me cry.
I’m going to have to have a talk with Tyler later now and reassure him that I’m fine and I’m not going anywhere.