I am constantly surprised that you don’t realize how bad you are until you are better.
I have been in such a brain fog for the last couple of weeks. I didn’t even realize it until yesterday. When finally I could actually get things done without needing a nap every couple of hours. I hate feeling like that. So much so that I’m thinking of starting to take Wheat Grass. AH!
I would be doing fine. Walking through my house just thinking about what I am doing at that moment. Then one of the kids, or Rich, would ask me something. Not even a big something. Just a simple question, “Mom can I have a drink?” “What do you want to have for dinner?”. Then my head would go into a tail spin. Literally it felt like there was a whirlwind of activity in my brain. I couldn’t focus. I could picture a vast space where my brain should be with things whirling around as if in a cyclone. Books and wooden chairs and desks all swirling around. Nothing made sense and all I did was get angry and all they did was get angry at me for not being able to answer the simple question. So of course it didn’t get better, it got worse.
And then I would need a nap. All because someone asked me for a drink.
That has been my brain for about the last month.
Now that I am feeling better. For two days. 🙂 I am finally getting things together. Lists are being made. The house is getting cleaned. The kids homework is getting done and their table manners are going back to normal. I’m not saying I expect perfection from them, but I expect perfection from them. 🙂
It is like nothing gets done in this house when I am out of commission. I come back to normalcy (kind of) and the house is a disaster and the kids are totally out of whack. And now I think that it is going to take a couple days to get things back to normal. That is my goal. Normal. Seems like an easy thing to aspire for.
Christmas is coming and my schedule is mayhem. Like the commercials. They are already laughing at me. I have come to the point where all weekends are booked and I’m starting to fill up my week days. December is going to be crazy and I need my brain to be firing on all cylinders.