I am terrified right now. It’s a horrible feeling. There’s something you want to run and hide from, an unseen terror that you don’t even know if it’s coming after you, but it could be it could be coming fast. Or it could be waiting around a corner for just the right moment. You don’t know. No one knows. There really is no way to tell.
I know that I shouldn’t take other peoples MS stories, as “hey this could happen to me”, but it’s hard not to. I met someone tonight that told me his wife’s MS story. She was diagnosed with relapsing remitting 6 years ago. And she was fine. A little bit of spasticity, nothing big. And now she’s straight downhill. He kept referring to her as a vegetable. So yes I am freaking out a little right now. Trying to not think that this thing is coming after me like a freight train….. Especially since it seems to want to attack my eyes. Please give me a chair and leave me my eyes. Alright before I really freak out and start crying, I’m going to bed.
Big Breath. Breath…….
God Damn It!
Alright now I feel a little better. What would we do without blogs to vent on. (alright Rich just asked me “What would we do?” My answer is “Cry. There would be a lot more crying.”)