After waiting 6 months, the day is finally here. I am going to see my new Doc today. It is frustrating to me that I have to take my son out of school early in order to get there, but this is what we do to see a specialist. Mostly I am very excited about being seen by someone who really knows what they are talking about. Someone who specializes in MS. I do have a few concerns though. I think that he is going to send me for another MRI. My last MRI showed new signs of deterioration of my Myelin and I am sure that they are going to want to check and see if anything has happened in the last 6 months. Now I’m not scared of taking the MRI, just paying for it. My new insurance is making everything cost a fortune and I am feeling very poor right now. Also, I am afraid that he is going to decide that the copaxone isn’t working well enough for me and that I need to switch meds. I love copaxone. There aren’t any side effects. I’ve gotten used to the shots every day. They are only subcutaneous (spelt that right on the first try!) so the actual shot doesn’t really hurt that much. The medicine seeping in to my body is a completely different story. But I am afraid that I’m going to be switched to one of the every other day and injected into your muscle shots. Not to mention that that doesn’t sound pleasant, those all have side effects. Fun side effects like flu like symptoms. I don’t want to feel sick all the time.
So I am keeping my fingers crossed. I may have new holes in my brain, but they aren’t effecting me physically. Does it sound strange to say that then that isn’t bothering me? I refuse to leave today without the name and number of a good psychologist. Hopefully it is someone who won’t mind if I prattle on about things other than my MS. Especially since MS seems to be the least of my reasons for psychosis these days. Hopefully all will go well.